Monday, 25 June 2012

GRE


NO, THIS IS NOT A ARTICLE ABOUT "HOW TO STUDY GRE".
I am just grumbling. 


There's a fine line between perseverance and obduracy.
 And apparently I live in the confusion of the two. by Yi


Studying for GRE is a total nightmare. When I started to memorize the vocabulary by sorting and collecting all the related ones, I actually thought it was fun. It's a bit quirky but I do enjoy learning new vocabulary and I take this as a good chance to learn English in a new light. But then here comes the real test. I felt so despondent after failing series of questions...


I feel like I am back in the 18-years-old days, but in a miserable way. That was the days when I spend more than 8 hours in the class, another 8 hours on taking all kinds of exams and tests. It's painful, hideous and becoming daily grind.


It's ironic that the first vocabulary on the GRE word book is "ABANDON". I am on the edge of giving it up every day. But somehow I manage to get myself back in to the game. No one says life's easy. 


I am obdurate in many ways. I chose to take GRE, study oversea European history, and, apply for a PhD regardless of my diffidence of ability and uncertainty of the prospect of future academic life.


Great, now I'm applying the GRE vocabulary in my writing! How good is that! Now I see why there are so many blogs and sites about personal experience of preparing GRE. It takes so much effort and cause so much frustration that it becomes indelible in one's life. 

Monday, 18 June 2012

Sherlock



This is probably the only comfort in my uneventful life lately.

Wednesday, 18 April 2012

New title, old life

I quit last months. The reason is simple and clear: I need time to prepare my application and a full-time job just won't do it. So after clearing up the mess, completing the process of resigning, I took a few days off in Taichung and then, restarted the old life as a student (I wish I can call myself an independent researcher...), and a tutor!

Everyone loves student life. Being a student somehow means being young and free, bunches of time to do whatever you like to do. That would be exactly what I felt in the very first five minutes stepping into the lib and picking up the books which I should have finishing reading months ago.

Then here comes a surge of panic. A couple of days being unwell and sleepless. Then I got to know that it is the pressure of being jobless, without identity and money.

Luckily I always find a way to deal with it. Negative feeling usually won't last for a long time and I move on, even though I have not yet get rid of the ugly truth of uncertainty of an academic career for the rest of my life.

And I finally got a tutor offer to pay the rent! That's a good start. Now I have to work harder on my proposal and have a more specific plan and stop mumbling here.

加油!I can do it!

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

she's in love

稍早接到我妹的電話,我想她的春天已經來了。

死都不想跟我承認現在正在談戀愛的原因是因為她姊姊大概會把這件事昭告天下。她的考量果然是正確的,正有此意。

就像看到臉書上那些貼著結婚喜訊、分享婚紗、喜帖一切的女朋友們一樣的心情,看著自己的妹妹開開心心的沈浸在愛河中,很愉快。

不過戀愛中的人真的很容易不小心閃到人。

中午才跟她抱怨肚子餓要掛了電話去買午餐。她忍不住甜蜜蜜的說「喔,你要出去買午餐啊?他等一下會煮給我吃。」

damn it. 



If you break her heart, I'll break your legs. 

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